By Rachel Rooney, Toppel Peer Advisor
I recently read an article by the Chronicle of Higher Education
called “Next Time, Fail Better.” It is written by Paula M. Krebs, an English
professor at Wheaton College, and argues that English majors don’t know how to
fail and compares them with computer science majors. I’m an English major, but
I am also taking a computer science course this semester. I have worked very
hard all semester to not fail and have tried many, many times to apply the
concepts to the lab. Computer science has helped me learn how to fail in a way.
How I found this article was actually because I Google-searched “how not to
fail computer science.” This piece is my response to that article which is
here: http://chronicle.com/article/Next-Time-Fail-Better/131790/
Samuel Beckett said, “"Ever tried. Ever failed. No matter.
Try again. Fail again. Fail better." Beckett was one the last great
modernist writers, and lived a very fascinating life. If you have the time, you
can read about him here: http://www.egs.edu/library/samuel-beckett/biography/. Something else I noticed that came up on
Google was a question by someone who wanted to try computer science but was
afraid to fail. That never crossed my mind when I signed up for the course. Or
for any course outside my major. So, yes, I am afraid of failure. But I’m not
afraid of trying. I believe that to focus on failure means missing out on the
try part. There’s something to be said about a person’s character when they see
the possibility of failure and decide to try their hardest anyway. To decide
not to give up, not because of what is going to happen, but because of simply
having the character to continue. Krebs wrote, “The work of coding was an
endless round of failure, failure, failure before eventual success.” These verbs
very accurately describe the frustrations of computer science. There are days
when I sit on my floor and think about the frustrations of it and then get up
and decide to do it anyways. There is something inside of us that is stronger
than our failures.
Theodore Roosevelt said, “Nothing in the world is worth having or
worth doing unless it means effort, pain, difficulty… I have never in my life
envied a human being who led an easy life. I have envied a great many people
who led difficult lives and led them well.” I truly believe that nothing—or
very few things—of worth are easy. I
advise you to take Roosevelt’s words to heart, but also I’m going to say that
the article is wrong. English majors do know failure. Revision is a constant
process. Write a paper. Revise. Revise again. English majors work hard, because
it’s a creative expression, thought driven field. It’s subjective, unlike the
computer science major, which is very inside the box; you do something to get a
result. The main flaw of her paper is in comparing computer science and
English, because they are both very different. Krebs does make a comparison of
the two: “But that's an important difference between computer science and the
humanities. When a program runs and produces a good result, it's perfect. It's
awfully hard to define success the same way in the humanities. What we do,
teaching or writing, can always be better. The program will never simply run.” While
Krebs acknowledges the differences between the two fields, she still holds by
the claim that English majors miss out on the lesson of failure. I believe
English is not meant to be perfect. It’s not about getting a result, but about
gathering ideas and putting pen to paper. It’s about reading literature and
thinking and writing about it. It’s a process that involves forming opinions,
finding evidence, creating a thesis, and proving a point. It’s a much broader
complex field than computer science.
What I am writing next is the important part. Listen. The
performance based perspective that says we are determined by either our success
or our failure is a prevalent theme in the article. But it’s also a perspective
I would encourage you not to embrace. Life, you, me, everyone, it’s all messy
and nothing is perfect. Even in computer science there can be exceptions. It
doesn’t matter if you fail or succeed. In thirty or forty years, it won’t
matter if you got an A in that one class in college. People aren’t going to
remember you for your grades. If you want to be an encouragement to those
around you, dare to be a person who has self-respect and respect and concern
for others. At the end of the day, how you lived—your character—is what
matters. Don’t let people tell you that your value is determined by your
success or your failure, because it’s a lie. Max Lucado might have said the
truth the best way possible; “you are valuable because you exist. Not because
of what you do or what you have done, but simply because you are.”